motivation: n. the reason or reasons one has for acting or behaving in a particular way.
intention: n. a determination to act in a certain way.
These words have been heavy on my heart lately. I found myself reading something I wrote almost a year ago. I could honestly feel my heart smiling greater and greater as each word was passing me by. The reason for the smiles was that ALL of the words on those pages written back then were confirming the thoughts I had been having these past couple of months about what God is laying on my heart to do. And then, all of a sudden, out of absolutely nowhere I saw, boldly written, on the page….THIS IS THE OBVIOUS, DESIRE THE UNOBVIOUS IN LIFE, NOT THE OBVIOUS. Would my motivation behind writing those words confirm what I have been feeling all along? Would my intentions prove to be enough to hold onto the glimmer of hope that these words were supporting what God is truly laying on my heart?
obvious: adj. easily discovered, seen, or understood.
As I obsess over the definition of obvious, I think I was a little off a year ago. You see the things I was passionately writing about were surely not obvious. The words on those pages were not easily discovered. I had to take off my worldly glasses to find these words. I had to dive so deep into God’s Word to understand what I was writing that sometimes I would find myself waking up with my face in my Bible (thank goodness I do not drool when I sleep).
No, these words God so perfectly laid on my heart were not obvious. Truly it took twenty-five years and counting for them to “appear before me”.
I believe with all of my heart that we were created for more than something easily discovered. I believe though that what matters is our motivation to be who we were created to be, and with that, our intentions too. God wants our intentions to be pure; He wants Himself to be the ONLY thing behind our motivation for doing anything at all.
This is so important for me to remember. It is not about what I do–obvious or not. It is all about making sure my intentions and motivation is lined up with God’s truth. It is about intentionally getting out of the way so that God can work through me. For then, only, will God’s love be easily discovered, seen, and understood to every single person He places across my path who need Him most.