Back to the Throne of my Heart

Oh how I have missed you.  

I have been waiting patiently for you.

Waiting for you to come back to Me.

I will welcome you with loving arms.

Do not be afraid.

You cannot possibly understand how hard it is.

Hard to reach out to you and have you turn the other way.

As though you were looking.

Looking for someone else

Something else

Anything else to bring you what it is you were searching for.

You could not see 



Know that what you were looking for was always right there,

Next to you.

Next to you with arms stretched out.

Waiting for you to grab a hold of My hand.

I was longing for this moment.

Now that I find your hand in Mine, 

I can only hope you never let go.

Welcome back my precious one 

Welcome back to the very spot you were created for.


As I stand hand in hand with You I am complete.

Oh how I longed for this moment.

This moment in other ways.

I tried it all.

I wanted to be complete, never knowing in You is where I would find myself.

Where I would find the me You created me to be.

Welcome back.

Back to where I find my hand in Yours.

Back to where You are always intended to be:

On the throne of my heart.


It is YOU

I am so thankful that God is my Teacher.  He is constantly showing me more and more of His perfect truth and for that I am so very thankful!  Please Father, please keep on teaching me!

Each day we live our lives we are waiting for something.

A husband, wife.  A  job.  A baby.  A family.  A good report from the doctor.  An apology.

When we put all of our attention into the item we are waiting for we become obsessed.  Life is a waiting game, but our winning prize is not any of the items listed above or other ones harboring in your heart right now.  When we make these items our prize we can just go ahead and call them idols not items.

We get caught up in these idols don’t we?  We start to believe we need them.  Like something we find when we obtain any of these idols will be the thing to bring us joy, peace, happiness, hope.  This may be the case temporarily but these idols will never bring a lasting anything to your very being.

The something we are really waiting for in life among the midst of all of these idols Lord is You alone.  My soul does not find satisfaction in obtaining anything in life other than Your sweet presence.  

In God’s Word we do not find evidence to support waiting for idols, quite the contrary we find encouragement to wait for God alone.  (Psalm 27:14, Psalm 33:20, Psalm 130:5, Lamentations 3:26)  The Bible over and over again tells us to wait for the Lord.

The Lord says, “I will betroth you to me forever; I will betroth you in righteousness and justice, in love and compassion.  I will betroth you in faithfulness, and you will acknowledge the Lord.” Hosea 2:19-20

One thing I have asked from the LORD, that I shall seek: That I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, To behold the beauty of the LORD And to meditate in His temple.  Psalm 27:4

These verses have helped my heart understand what it truly is that I am waiting for, eternity with my Savior.  It is my prayer that as you live your life waiting you find what you may not even know your heart is truly longing for: a right relationship with the Lover of your soul, God himself.  In this relationship is where we have personal and intimate communion with Him.  I can promise you in this relationship is where you will find the prize we were intended to wait for through life: God Himself beckoning us heavenward in Christ Jesus.  As we wait, God too is waiting for us to welcome Him back to the throne of our hearts.  

The inspiration for this post came from my very own, real struggle of waiting for a husband.  I made my desire for a husband an idol in my life.  I would think more about having a husband one day than having a relationship with God today.  I knew what to tell myself when this desire interrupted my life, “God is your Husband Diane, you do not need a man, you have God.”  I would repeat God’s truth over and over again until I seemed content that God was enough for me.  One day, as I was driving along God finally helped my heart feel His truth as He whispered these beautiful words into my heart, (and they are here to stay): I am your Husband Diane, desire Me as I desire you.  I am waiting for you to share your life with Me, to dance with Me, to be My bride.  My Spirit will kiss your heart and you will hold My hand in yours every day you live your life waiting to spend eternity in My Glorious Presence.  Isaiah 54:5

Thank You Jesus!!