Pink Bulldozers

How did these walls get here?

Where did they come from?

You really think you can do that Diane, think again.

Who do you think you are?  Failure, that is all you really are.

Stop trying to look smart, you are dumb.

It is like each lie is piled high.

The piles turn into walls keeping me in a dark pit.

But for every lie there is a truth.

A truth that brings life, light, joy.

The truth crushes these walls.

The truth lights the way to get out of the pit.

When I feel lies, doubt, and confusion stacking up in my life, and I get to the point where I am ready to cry out to God for help, I picture God bringing the truth I need to crush these lies…on a pink bulldozer.

I know that sounds a little crazy, but what can I say, I am a visual person, and I like the color pink!

And in an instant, God reminds my heart of His truth.

You really think you can do that Diane, think again. (Philippians 4:13)

Who do you think you are?  Failure, that is all you really are.  Know all you really are is Mine.  (Isaiah 43:1)

Stop trying to look smart, you are dumb.  Start embracing My image reflected in You.  (2 Corinthians 3:18)

Pink bulldozer or not, God wants to crush each lie building up in your heart with His truth.  He wants to lift you out of that dark pit you have found yourself in.

It may not be easy to get there, but I can assure you, one of the best places to be in life, is hand-in-hand with God, standing over the rubble of where those walls once were. Psalm 40:2

Jesus, please keep bulldozing the yucky parts of our hearts!


Slaves to Sin to Slaves to Him

Are you aware that there are approximately 27-36 million slaves in the world today?  That is 27-36 million lives controlled and exploited every day.


Set up.

Raped.  Over and over again. All day, All night.




My heart breaks for these slaves, victims, of such a horrendous injustice.

When I first learned about this injustice of human trafficking my heart kept breaking and praying for these victims but it was not until about a year ago that my heart started breaking and praying for the other slaves.

I wonder how many other slaves are in the world today.  These would be the lives that are slaves to sin.  The pimps the johns.  The lives that have let evil reign in their hearts and choose to violate and exploit innocent lives every day.  

The truth is, our battle is not against these slaves to sin (Ephesians 6:12).  Sometimes I am tempted to see these slaves to sin for what they do instead of seeing them for who God created them to be.  Their actions are inexcusable.  God will deal with them in His perfect way in His perfect time.  It is my job to love these lives just as God Himself loves these lives.  I have learned that when it seems impossible to love someone, you can love them by praying for them.

In 2015 I am challenging myself to not forget about these other slaves as I pray.  I challenge you as well to pray for these lives caught in the grasp of sin.  As God continues to set them free, it is my hope that one year there will be fewer and fewer slaves to sin and more slaves to Christ.  I will keep on praying until 27-36 million becomes ZERO.

DIVE redux

Last year, God laid the word DIVE on my heart.   I was so ready to dive into all God had for me in 2014.  Or so I thought.  In reality those words that came out of my mouth were ready but the words in my heart were not.  There were so many parts of my heart I was not ready to give up to God.  I wanted to hold onto worldly things because they brought me a false sense of comfort and happiness.  I thought I knew what was best or what should happen next in my life.  I prayed almost every day that God would do whatever He wanted in and through me, but it was all conditional.  How could I ever dive into what God has for me when I was weighed down by all of this yuck in my heart?

As I sit here and look back at the past year I am overwhelmed with thankfulness for the work God did in my heart the very last month of 2014.  It was not easy or fun, but I realized there were so many little walls forming in my heart around the “things” I simply did not want Him to control.  After this realization I cried out to God.  I let down these walls and let God’s grace wash through.  During this process, God reminded me that there is much joy to be found while surrendering to Him.  The joy for me was knowing that God waited patiently for me to let Him into this corner of my heart.   The joy continues knowing my heart is now ready to dive into all God has for me.  I know His plan for me is better than anything I can think of or imagine.  This year I want to embrace the joy that is found as I continue to let God in to every crevice of my heart to work out His purpose for my life.

Philippians 2:13 for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose.

Something New

Isaiah 43:18-19

“Do not call to mind the former things,
Or ponder things of the past.
“Behold, I will do something new,
Now it will spring forth;
Will you not be aware of it?
I will even make a roadway in the wilderness,
Rivers in the desert.

These verses have kindly interrupted my life in the last couple of months.  I was eager for God to teach me what He wanted me to learn through these words.  Being the first day of a new year it seems so appropriate to share what it is He is teaching me.

In 2014 there have been more times than I can count where I have cried out, “I cannot do this.”  There were a lot of times in the past year where I wanted to give up.  I wanted to follow the ways of the world because it was easier.  I failed a lot.  I failed so much I felt like the world’s biggest failure.  How did I get here?  In this wilderness of sin and lies.

No matter what kind of wilderness you are trying to find your way out of right now, God is there.  Making a way.  He is making a way for you to find Him.  (Jeremiah 29:14)  He is making a way for you to know Him (Psalm 46:10)  He is making a way for you to take your, “I cannot do this” and turn it into “He can.”  (Exodus 14:14)  God loves us so much so that when there was no way, He made a way for us to spend eternity with Him through the gift of His Son.  (John 14:6)

Even though I found myself in a place I wasn’t expecting to be in this past year, today I can have hope that God is making a way for me.  There is a journey to be had in this wilderness.  One where I find His hand in mine.  As I journey with God into this new year, all my heart can truly know is that He has been EVERYTHING to me and will continue to be.

It is my sincere prayer for 2015 that we would not let our circumstances keep us from perceiving the marvelous things God is doing in us, with us, through us, and for us.